dove evolution

Hmm not gonna comment too much bout this though. I was simply surfing through the net for stuff relating to my Ethics case study about "unethical advertising" and find it fascinating, this video.

I'm quite eccentric, inconsistent and undecisive most times a person i consider. Just 3 days back i jotted down a lengthy paragraph to be posted on the blog, perhaps too to celebrate successfully posting for 3 consecutive days. Then an about-turn again and i deleted it entirely. Hehh, what a loser :))

Been playing alot of badminton lately, or maybe too much at one go, considering i haven't been playing it recently and the body isn't quite indicating the adaptability green light just yet. My returns are weaker day by day and its not so good playing weak shots in front of many admiring eyes haha (; so i'd choose to rest tomorrow instead..aahh finallyy! Fitness test for badminton is next week; there are two tests consisting push-ups and "4-count squat thrust". I want to and believe i can be the fastest. Bravo :/

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Slept at 5.30, up 2 hours later on Sun morning, lunch and fm, then futsal. After that i knew (in fact i already realized when i awoke the morn) i'd be knocked out and fall sick by the night or the next day. Thus i quickly washed up and forced some food in my empty stomach and surrender to bed, that was around 8. You know like those springs dangling out from a failed machine, my legs felt somewhat like that, all stretched up and 3 quarters dead, could hardly feel em'.

Heyy, but somehow i was up at 10 this morning and the frequently sick dude isn't sick after all! (: Still feel a very slight giddiness but all normal. And therefore i'd be going to co-curriculum badminton session after all later. Need to mention too my Uni's Cybertracker has almost everything you want to dl, and it completes in matters of minutes so i do look forward to go there and look out for what i can find over there. Want anything ask from me k? :P

Miss those getaway holidays though. Wanna do one somewhere in the near future.

Hmm also, quite keen on seeing me friend who just returned, knew for ages (like 12 years?), and haven't seen and catched up with for ages..haah not thaat long but yeaah, gonna be pretty interestingg.

Erm, yeah that was Sunday and hello Mon!

hiatus

Its bout not too long before the weekly Youth. Just awhile ago i was in the air-conditioned room, lying down on the comfy bed, whispering to my mind im tired thus i'm here. I'm not sure if i was really tired though. The bed is such an addictive spot i'd willingly consign myself to - of course, for no apparent reason besides being tired. There, my eyes fastened and my mind relaxed and let loose whilst i enjoy the comfort of the chilly yet soothing atmosphere, and apparently the very pillow i was hugging - the same old pillow that has essentially aid in helping me sleep better and dream bigger through the many years.

I don't exactly know why i'm here now too. Attempting to fiddle at the qwerty keys at blogger.com to come out with something brand new on my page. I think it was just yesterday i was telling a soul about my notions toward blogging.

"The fact that you start a blog means you are prepared to tell people bout your life or story or thoughts";

"Don't think too thoroughly, and not be pressured into writing";

"Write when you genuinely have something to and it'll make your posts naturally more pleasant and intriguing";

"Often times we think less bout ourselves, at least in the case of blogging, or what we write about but its something
more in the eyes people";

and so on whatsoever. Occasionally too - such as now - i come here simply to write, right, write. Its some sort of your imaginary friend you talk to ey, or simply to spam something on when you feel blank or random whatever it could be. If only too blogger have this convenient sketching tool like msn (or perhaps they do have) and youl see me here everyday coming out with funny thrashy, blank drawings. Okay i think i'm done with talking to this imaginary friend, at least for now. Nothing much else showing up in my brain atm. Good, bye.

P.S Owh in fact i do have something to speak on. I had my class for co-curriculum in badminton on thursday and we learned about the badminton court and its dimensions, the sections' names and its purposes, and at the court itself, we were taught on high service and low service. How interesting :/

hollow way

From corporate business ethics context. Rang in your ears before isn't it?

"All that is needed for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."

-Edmund Burke

"We have to learn how to be good, honest and fair, but being bad seems to come so naturally to us all. I learn more about how to be good, treat my fellows and the world about me with greater respect, every day. It's not easy, and the alternatives are always there; the easier course..."

-Rudyard Kipling

Case studies for this subject piling up. Other than that, short sem's been pretty relaxing so far though. And i still cant put that cbox in here im puzzled just why.

plum-line

At this age, i'm still young enough to further improve physically or in terms of a certain skill. Take for instance, futsal abilities.
At this age too, i'm actually old enough to feel pains or pressures after sports, particular my back, the regular ankle and even my knee.
I'm 20 btw. Isn't that too young to? I still got maybe 4 or 5 decades of race to run, erm hopefully.

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Honestly speaking when Aty Jane first called me to be part of Sunday School worship team, i wasn't quite fond bout the idea. In the first place, i'm not too sure if i'm a stage person in accordance to my personality, i'm also not a kid-magnet or a crowd-puller. Its been a year i've been doing exactly that and the spell already made me realize i could somehow be (partially) wrong about what i perceive as fact, in which i take joy of, knowing that being sincere with what i'm doing - in this case doing actions for SS worship and making children happy to be there, would in return be sincerely appreciated.

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I shared before with bug though sometimes i wonder whether this or that whatever it be are worth it to, or i should just flung everything out the disposal window and forgetting bout em totally. Apparently most of em so far been the former i believe. Something about life just everyone got to overcome. Obviously i'm not doing too well with absorbing that as a reality isn't it. I always complain. Complain so much when i actually mute myself do i realize whats all that qualms all about or should it even be existent in the first place.

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And also i think i'm quite a back-peddler. Mentioned before i've got this double personality, i think i wrote that in my fb profile. Tend to look in front occasionally and other times i might actually be hoping things would slow down or worse, stop and never change - whether its for the good or actually not too good since there would be no chance of changes (improvements) to it. I categorize myself to an old village man, who eventhough half-realizes the country needs to change and step up the gear, continues to vote confidently or perhaps blindly for a present government (whom i strongly reckon are still very behind in its state of mind and managing the basic needs of the people) without having any petty considerations about its whichever alternatives because he has been doing so for the past half a century. Mortals like us should be ostracized. Similarly, its called stubborn right? Yes i can be one at times. Not sure though my statement could actually lead to an ISA arrest but i'm merely giving my honest remark nonetheless, no again?

Are you not resilient enough to accept criticisms? Then sorry, no improvement, forever.

Owh yes you, just so you won't be dejected seeing no updates since you pledged to check it out. All is alright, hopefully, in weeks' time too (; and the race continues...

gray or grey?

Nowadays the fire infuriates deep within while emotions under sheer scrutiny, well kept and constrained. Not too bad i opine. Good night.

the butterfly glides

i have this tendency of thinking alot when i'm all tired and ready to call it a day in bed, roughly around the 1am period. I'm not so sure though whether its good or bad, all these thoughts come clicking away in my head and it has actually become my brain peaking point - the phase when the brain operates at its utmost function and flexibility. And also did i mention, it is when i could come out with brilliant blog posts and i get quite excited bout it - yes, when i'm suppose to be all sleepy. Unfortunately as you know, it all disperse the next morning, so no brilliant blog posts ey :)

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Well i have 4 days of school each week and i just completed my first day for the week and for the sem bravo! So i'm glad enough to just linger by here a moment for once without much particular highlight to post up. Okay thus, i'll just jot down some thoughts and plans i currently have. And a goodbye before you begin to loathe my crap and click that "x". bye bye (:

1. i wonder at times though how many ppl actually come by here and read em (yes bug i know your my #1 loyalist heh). But i mentioned before i write it more to myself so it doesn't bother.

2. i realized i have learnt not to directly step into people's matter. as busybody i could get, i'll just observe from a safe distance and keep quiet. no qualms, controversies whatsoever. fair nuf.

3. i got an aim for this short 2-month semester to achieve at least a 3.3 pointer (3.15 last sem). i'm adamant i'm smarter than that and would work hard to prove that.

4. if i have sufficient money by mid next year i'll contemplate putting on that metal on my zigzag-ey teeth. ppl tell me its my teeth-growing line (whatever you call em) which caused my teeth to be uneven but i insist to put blame on allowing my so-called uncle to pull em like plucking grass eeeh, feel sick imagining those moments :/

5. i want to work hard and rise up fast to garner enough to stroll the world with my dear wife in the future (:

6. i often think i'd never fall into "dangerous" temptations because i'm resolute and have firm resistance plus a proven test passed with flying colours, but as i grow older now i'm beginning to believe its a lie. glad i'm in a fairly safe position and i'll continue to lead this life.

7. during my past 3 weeks of hols, i had more opportunities to lunch with sis, but i wonder how far i've reached out to her. maybe i could do more? not much more though.

8. there's quite a something wrong with my back. each time after sports, mild ones even, the hurt erupts at the end of my spine, feel the pain when i bend. i don't blame myself actually for dreaming of being some spoilt-rich-adopted kid when i was younger, because i could easily spend on anything, and which perhaps could save me my spine!

9. if i ever have time in solitude, i'll write every interesting, good and bad episodes in my life, of course, in the most beautiful of handwritings. I love writing words neatly for it portrays my personality or present mood somewhat. Did i mention too, i have poor handwritings when i was in lower primary. people change, no? ;)

10. i'm actually rather happy atm. thank you very much you (:

arise

I just had my hair cut again strategically timed just the optimal length nearing the Christmas period (+ another cut 1.5months later). Vain much ey? It to me is in every human, most. I realized though a pretty miserable thing bout hairdressers is they never get to see the end result of their haircuts? They could only see the mess - that is when you visit em with your ugly bush; and your crop - which is just after they complete styling your hair. Or you could term them infant (crop/after cut) or elderly (mess/going to cut). They just would have no chance to see the adolescent hair growth, pathetic ey? :) but the fact that you visit them again and again indicates they laid an awesome foundation leading up to a decent o'adolescent.

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I'm not too fazed or enthusiastic though seeing myself appearing here and here. Maybe because i'm particularly self-conscious and somewhat expectant.

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I checked my final results online yesday and what a relieve i passed every 6 papers! Despite missing several Info System lectures and 2 of 3 lab tests, i could still make it, thank God. Nowadays i don't feel too much the intense when exam nears. Maybe i would a day or two before and i'll be stuffing all the knowledge in, a messy sporadic way - like how a babysitter forcefully loads baby porridge into a baby's poor diminutive mouth. School continues next Tues though.

I have too, recently been babbling about my future - what i'll end up doing or what's in store for me several years later, how much i could actually earn enough to support myself and lead an affordable comfortable life, how long i would take to earn enough money to do this and that etc. Perhaps just another period everyone goes through in their life when they spring out of their teenage years. Apologies for those who had endured listening to my wild future fantasies and wonders ;)

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There's this book i'm currently reading - The Uninvited - about a young unemployed factory dude who ventured into grand banquets to find a living - yes, eating and collecting "money for your troubles" as a journalist in disguise, and became an accidental freelance journalist, consequently discovering many hidden truths and conspiracies in the society. And as a "journalist", he played his part in finding justice with the aid of his good looks and "golden retriever" charm for the sidelined community - not without causing trouble for himself and, a little affair with a pretty cute little masseuse too :)

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Worship leading, again, this weekend and hope i don't screw up too much. This time i'm implying more formal preparations like jotting down exactly exactly what to say - less of my usual spontaneity as a new approach. Will see how it goes. Yes, finally a post in weeks.