and the big day

I've been to interviews in my life but technically speaking, today's 'interview' is my first ever proper and formal job interview - its my uni assignment! but the panicky side of the occasion doesn't lie on what to expect from my interviewer tutor, but whether i could even make it on time! Be reminded people, the tutor stressed to us last week that the most important aspect of an interview to start off with is punctuality. Yes, I blame myself for leaving it till the death. But thank the heavens, because my buddy lend me his friend's car and i managed to print and bind my resume at another place nearby the uni, because the printing place at uni i was suppose to visit was full house with people printing (you proly are starting to entangle in my confusing story and explanation) too!

I rushed so hard to reach the third-floor interview room I was drenched in massive sweat all over my smart all-black and silver-tie formal wear. My friend (who lend me the car) emerged from the interview room, to my relieve (as our interview sessions are back-to-back), as i dashed along the hallway and I could barely switch to the supposed meditative all-prepared mood but who cares anyway because i made it!

Knocked, good morning, sit after being granted permission to, i was initially fumbling with my words, rashly describing myself in response to the first question of the interview, damn the sweat was still flowing like waterfall all over my forehead! But sooner or later i gained composure and began answering with more stability and confidence and the interview went on smoothly till the end. And it was satisfying earning credits for the painstaking effort of making a creative and a helluva stunning (fine, i *might* be exaggerating a lil') resume though its only worth 5 marks.

Post-interview was all relax. The burden on the shoulders lifted. Something of a major worry the night before that everything might go chaos, strolled through successfully, and i'm left a happy man. Fun around uni for several hours and a deserving 8-pax lunch complete a big day. I'm finally back home now, wondering what else could be too difficult to accomplish :)

unfortunately no pics with me, so bare with more readings, for now!

and it goes on

okay im just playing tetris just for fun, a before bed thingo. the record has been there for some time and i half gave up on erasing it already. but sometimes we need to be reminded of how life's challenges and situations always seem impossible and makes you weary. but if you continue giving yourself that lift, you will discover the way out and a further step beyond where you are.




i beat my record


impressively.


no early start tomorrow. so i get more than enough sleep, dont worryyy.

peace

there was tad dizziness going to uni today but i eventually attended every class, even had squash! but pukings have made my system slightly paralyzed temporarily. ate 3/4 of cheese-baked spaghetti bolognaise and couldn't last as long as usual during sports. ahh well, curse my own luck for the bad food.

this morning i dreamt of being at the same scene which i was at (during a previous dream some time ago) but the storyline is slightly modified. this time, we were trapped in the mansion and were preparing to faceoff with the enemies, which apparently has advanced in their technology to capture us - by using virtual reality to trap us. so basically im thinking theyr not actually in the mansion but simply, v-r. and if you actually attempt to have any means of escaping or panic, you will be captured. so it was all intensed and we were reminded to stay calm even when they were few hundred of those images everywhere! so in the end i survived... and we lived happily ever after.. :/

kindly nudge me if you notice me insane.

madness

i puked 2 times. and i gotta feeling more might come...

this the first time it happened out of a sudden, and when im alive and healthy. now i feel sick in the stomach. whatever the food i ate, i'd hav phobia eating it already.

....

for the record, 7 pukes and a massive diarrhea. someone please kill me, fast.

Cristiano Ronaldo

Yet another defeat. Now i'm really thinking...

you and i miss this dude here.

cat's grace

not too bad for an awful fall ey?

bettering the better

on ultra randamo note, ironic how people strive and battle (people, perhaps) so hard to earn a prized something, and when they actually obtain it, the fervor is already gone.



dawn,

is near.

happy 7th!

it's been a while since i've posted :)

we have our share

of the good and bad

sometimes it seems that

the darkness is neverending

but now i can see

the faint edges of

dawn

breaking

I Love You

square one is (equally) dear

4.44am was the time i vividly recall sleeping. and 8.54am was then the time i reluctantly got up and fetch my bro to work. awkward? you know why? #1 he was late because he slept much later than usual; #2 he slept late because he went to fetch me at PUTRAJAYA SENTRAL at friken 1.30am. Now everything makes more sense. And while my brain was still busy dreaming about a particular someone (not really but just to make it sound nicer, sorryy), the body was already caught in a shock. After dropping bro at his office, i drove on and noticed the TOLL! then i logically remember not having a cent with me. DIE. the unreliable phone (or rather, sim card) does its antique again so i was stagnated several meters before the toll gate, wondering what to do to escape embarrassment when a friendly 'ronda' truck crew pulled over and politely asked me to head over to the counter and they will assign me a letter to pay up the toll fee within one week. 2 absurd situations within 10 hours is what makes your life interesting!

btw, i just realized how massive homework is from this week's uni. notes, case studies, analysis of vids etc, and my badmintonsquash if you count em. and its week 2? yeah, out of 8. no surprise.

blessed, loved. the two words noteworthy today.



happy 8 months, love :)

perception is a strong word

5th november 2009.

-waking up not at the best of mentality
-first tutorial paired with a pretty battered impromptu speech but still managed 8/10
-poker
-second tut and last class for the week
-3 hrs with my new love, squash. pretty soothing. day peaking up
-dinner and more hang-abouts n heehaas here there everywhere
-pretty phone call
-reaching bus central at 1155
-discovers last bus back home isnt at midnight but 1130. ermmm, what noww
-low in batt, barely any credit left, not a single public transport available, weary
-at 130, i was driving smoothly back home
-now im finally clean, had my 2nd dinner, and will hang ard for notsurehowlong
-im exhausted. a long day (week)

life can be so exotic and wonderful. that sums my today.



remember, exchanging is also one of the features, a potent one.

startle sparkle

the acme aka pinnacle moment of Genting wasn't the delayed date of visit, not the discounted allpark entry fare, not the stubborn rain, not the spaceshot cockscrew gokart cyclone, neither is it the heehee haahaas, nor the delayed time of returning, BUT the (repetitive) bumpercar rides accompanied by constant organ-bursting bangs (absurd as it seems) in the evening. my first time in one; a giant, long-legged 'kid' participating in a 'youthful' event does make it all the more fulfilling. And i got to know this hyper boy, whose parents went gambling (tsktsk) and he voluntarily stationed himself there the entire night i presume; and also this stylish little girl, whom later i discovered was accompanied by her young Portugese daddy Tony. So this girl is Chinese-mixed, called Mickey Anthony and does ice-skating! Interesting huh. The two of em (Mickey + the parents-gambling-kid) somehow spiced up my trip, cant phatom why so ey.

Meh nyways funfun aside, sem starts and 2 subjects ain't gonna entertain me for the rest of this year, but i better take advantage of it and who knows, get both of em A+ and a 4-flat GPA awaits... What a joke! :D a realistic one.

In meeting room once again, and gonn attempt to start with my Chapter 1 notes already. Early bird catches the worm...sense the fervor? It always happens, for the first few weeks :p ciao

interesting povs

1) If you think women are nuisances, i think (as pathetic as i am one myself) men and their antiques are simply unbearable. nuf said.

2) Pick one person whom you think is your true friend. Are real friends meant to (almost) never disappoint/annoy/anger you one bit? If your answer is yes, come tell me!

backtrack

just scroll a lil down and you see the "3". it was a 3.0/10.0 on the opening day of my sem break; not too pleasant huh. okay more like "yes you pulled through the final and its sem break, SO WHAT (there are 2 underlying undiscolosed meanings, complicated as it is)?"

Come to think of it, i really didn't achieve a single beneficial quest, unless you count sleeping. but hey, aren't hols meant to be like that?? my mind never fails to tell me otherwise - which is a good thing.

hols are LEAVING! and it also reminds me of checking my final results :S and, i still haven't done anything.

feb fest

sometimes when you wanna try out something, or take up a challenge from people or yourself, you tend to have this mindset that you're somehow going to achieve it. NOT! i played friken tetris from 1:30 till 5:00 and i still couldn't beat my time. that is hella shameful and pathetic. its alright, im up and goin now already. but that was simply a killer ):

owh btw i remembered what i wanted to say already (ref prev post). i cut my hair but it was not up to my standards. but the bright side is that everyone seems to like it. does that not confuse any human mind? owh btw did i tell you, i never liked any of my fresh haircuts :/ no pics up thanks.

ooh. note title.

stoinko

my dreams been rambling these few days, the sleep aint exactly pleasant i'd say. its just alot of everything and it keeps on going until i wake up the next morning. owh the best part is, its as if theres some electronic device plugged onto my brain with a sole mission of brainwashing my memories and perceptions into negatives. urgh, lets move on...

the other day when i was tryingtobesosmart jogging as if i do that daily has taken its toll and i got tired legs now which yearn for massages! heh, thats trivial. but my point here is i wrote this down because i forgotten that one thing i was supposed to write here. speaks alot about my short-term memory huh. and alright the one thing i do remember is, from yesterday's cg games, i have one analysis and one conclusion: girls ARE brighter, faster and way brilliant when it comes to TABOO. BUT, they still cant guess DEUCE! :D (quote andie: you girls don't play sports!) hee.

btw A Walk To Remember, yes i know its 7 years ago and i watched it the first time, but hey, as much as its lovey dovey, theres so much meaning in it, sheer touching. please go watch it AHEM.

notice the title. doesn't quite make sense. thats what my brain is now.

immaculate

my 2 weeks aka 14 days of holiday is already ticking its way to the end ferociously! but hey, my mood sped up a lil today forGodknowshowlong from the lying downs and rotting in the room with this poor lil electronic companion. you might think its some typical dull thriller but hey, A Perfect Getaway definitely THRILLED me! helluva shocker! ooh, whats more, i went for a gruesome jog! now i feel more, normal. the adrenaline satisfies.

genting might be an idea. other than that, its pretty blank atm, dont mind that actually, dont know. and its the hyped-up captainball mini yf tourney this sat! some are pretty engrossed and intensed, others forgot, some indifferent. but its down the wire! GREEN to WIN! :) nothing impossible with chonghanjung (bragger side of me)!


oooh yes, and happy 13th, love ♥

3

now that sem break beckons, and i could do ANYTHING i want, EVERYTHING i longed to do which i never really had time or bothered to.... and then what?

intensive study week hasn't come easy, but im getting more and more concentrated on it. stats, as so far the best in terms of coursework, is one of the toughest to polish up for final, 10 freakin' chapters with endless work and exercises. i better be braced for some real perseverance.

owh, i checked my digital media (comp) coursework, and for some strange reasons i got an A :/ kinda weird really, but i don't mind! (; and it definitely gives me more incentive to work harder.

the amazing episode

this mounts a challenge, yeah. but when this other strikes, you have totally no idea what more you can do. you don't run from it, you don't hide either, neither can you. nothing but inevitable. you feel like a giant attempting to cross an endless borderless minefield, a limbless child trying to outrace the others in a swimming contest, a bird trying to convince humans that you can teach english, whatever. you try to arm yourself with shield, but there is none. ammos, none either. you try to think of the outcome, but it is too bitter to foretell. you try to look for the turning point, but it only points to the dreadful direction.

you look at the tear and wounds, the tears shed, the voices amplified, the energy sapped, the painful heart. you can't do anything about it. sometimes you even feel like cursing, killing. but that is plain foolish and nonsensical. you wish you live another 2 decades, when the flowers might actually bloom once again, and wonder what might happen then, and looking back and seeing, wow, what a difficult story you have seen.

and the special day for the special someone

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GF!

you are forever special in my heart



the rest shall be undisclosed :p