dry and drain

i love talking bout time - how it might change the most irrelevant, unnecessary, unfathomable, unanticipated, and the most unimaginable of many things in our life. And before we could adapt ourselves to realizing its happening, it already is blooming wide in our very eyes, the eyes of the astonished, the eyes of an awe-struck mortal - and it perhaps is what is so unique bout the whole process through time.

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the sixth time i heard "you may leave the hall now" out of as many final papers in the past two weeks was nothing but relief, relieve that all the efforts poured in and those sleepless nights endured to ensure the best outcome of the final could be finally put to rest. It was a moment when you just feel like locking your eyes together for a second and put back that smile on your face, a soothing moment of silence. And surely, it also is a moment of commencement of a 3-week holiday - 3 weeks of rejuvenation and refreshment, of completing all the petty leftover assignments and chores, a time when you could actually do things you often perceive as "no time", a period when you could open up treasured collections again and linger at every word or picture as long as you wish, and also wonder what else is fascinating to complete a well-deserved 3 weeks. Day 1 today would start simple though.

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hmm actually week by week in yf i hear anderson telling us what a pity so-and-so isn't here when the topic would be most ideal of him or her to gain knowledge or rewind of. Come to think of it, it is like you are slipping by something which could actually aid your uncertainties, fulfill your wish or more so, change your life the way He expects. Therefore, i was pretty satisfied i made it just on time for the whole class session last week because it definitely talked into me.

do you still reminisce times when you first know of Him? You perhaps were quite young then, and the enthusiasm no doubt would be extravagant. Every worship you attend, every good news you here bout Him from your teachers and every miracles your friends speak of or even those which occurred from your own vision, you feel so strongly about and really mean wow. Every week seems like another journey up the hill. And how did you just feel yesterday during service? Was everything just another walk-the-path routine? The songs you could sing precisely by shutting your eyes, plucking the bread and lifting the tiny wine glass and transferring it to the next, and the 'lectures' which you could afford to drift away into your own dreams? The class reminded me again that everything now seems so mechanical, and it absolutely is dissimilar from the original, no more that zeal. We have grown weary and gotten too familiar with the weekly clone. It probably was more emotional or unique for me as i was a non back then.

Anderson also spoke of the visit to the palace. and i'm sure you would be using the classiest of adjectives to describe your short spell all week. And here is the king of kings whose palace you attend week by week, the king of kings that walks with you and speaks to your heart everyday and every split second - the omnipresence King we have our fire for him nearly distinguished and further threatened. This is the outcome my teacher said, of preoccupancy of other things. And these are things ranked way below the Saviour. It is akin to another class about noises - raindrops from thunderstorms, your parents donating you nagging, the busy traffic when you walk on the road, your friends when you are in school and also your indiscipline and disobedience in placing priorities below more attractive activities.

Do you miss the times when you were fervent and eager? Do you yearn for times when every week feels so dynamic? Do you need a time of silence? Do you need to refresh your relationship with Him?

Deu4:29-30 But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul. When you are in distress and all these things have happened to you, then in later days you will return to the LORD your God and obey him.