startle sparkle

the acme aka pinnacle moment of Genting wasn't the delayed date of visit, not the discounted allpark entry fare, not the stubborn rain, not the spaceshot cockscrew gokart cyclone, neither is it the heehee haahaas, nor the delayed time of returning, BUT the (repetitive) bumpercar rides accompanied by constant organ-bursting bangs (absurd as it seems) in the evening. my first time in one; a giant, long-legged 'kid' participating in a 'youthful' event does make it all the more fulfilling. And i got to know this hyper boy, whose parents went gambling (tsktsk) and he voluntarily stationed himself there the entire night i presume; and also this stylish little girl, whom later i discovered was accompanied by her young Portugese daddy Tony. So this girl is Chinese-mixed, called Mickey Anthony and does ice-skating! Interesting huh. The two of em (Mickey + the parents-gambling-kid) somehow spiced up my trip, cant phatom why so ey.

Meh nyways funfun aside, sem starts and 2 subjects ain't gonna entertain me for the rest of this year, but i better take advantage of it and who knows, get both of em A+ and a 4-flat GPA awaits... What a joke! :D a realistic one.

In meeting room once again, and gonn attempt to start with my Chapter 1 notes already. Early bird catches the worm...sense the fervor? It always happens, for the first few weeks :p ciao

interesting povs

1) If you think women are nuisances, i think (as pathetic as i am one myself) men and their antiques are simply unbearable. nuf said.

2) Pick one person whom you think is your true friend. Are real friends meant to (almost) never disappoint/annoy/anger you one bit? If your answer is yes, come tell me!

backtrack

just scroll a lil down and you see the "3". it was a 3.0/10.0 on the opening day of my sem break; not too pleasant huh. okay more like "yes you pulled through the final and its sem break, SO WHAT (there are 2 underlying undiscolosed meanings, complicated as it is)?"

Come to think of it, i really didn't achieve a single beneficial quest, unless you count sleeping. but hey, aren't hols meant to be like that?? my mind never fails to tell me otherwise - which is a good thing.

hols are LEAVING! and it also reminds me of checking my final results :S and, i still haven't done anything.

feb fest

sometimes when you wanna try out something, or take up a challenge from people or yourself, you tend to have this mindset that you're somehow going to achieve it. NOT! i played friken tetris from 1:30 till 5:00 and i still couldn't beat my time. that is hella shameful and pathetic. its alright, im up and goin now already. but that was simply a killer ):

owh btw i remembered what i wanted to say already (ref prev post). i cut my hair but it was not up to my standards. but the bright side is that everyone seems to like it. does that not confuse any human mind? owh btw did i tell you, i never liked any of my fresh haircuts :/ no pics up thanks.

ooh. note title.

stoinko

my dreams been rambling these few days, the sleep aint exactly pleasant i'd say. its just alot of everything and it keeps on going until i wake up the next morning. owh the best part is, its as if theres some electronic device plugged onto my brain with a sole mission of brainwashing my memories and perceptions into negatives. urgh, lets move on...

the other day when i was tryingtobesosmart jogging as if i do that daily has taken its toll and i got tired legs now which yearn for massages! heh, thats trivial. but my point here is i wrote this down because i forgotten that one thing i was supposed to write here. speaks alot about my short-term memory huh. and alright the one thing i do remember is, from yesterday's cg games, i have one analysis and one conclusion: girls ARE brighter, faster and way brilliant when it comes to TABOO. BUT, they still cant guess DEUCE! :D (quote andie: you girls don't play sports!) hee.

btw A Walk To Remember, yes i know its 7 years ago and i watched it the first time, but hey, as much as its lovey dovey, theres so much meaning in it, sheer touching. please go watch it AHEM.

notice the title. doesn't quite make sense. thats what my brain is now.

immaculate

my 2 weeks aka 14 days of holiday is already ticking its way to the end ferociously! but hey, my mood sped up a lil today forGodknowshowlong from the lying downs and rotting in the room with this poor lil electronic companion. you might think its some typical dull thriller but hey, A Perfect Getaway definitely THRILLED me! helluva shocker! ooh, whats more, i went for a gruesome jog! now i feel more, normal. the adrenaline satisfies.

genting might be an idea. other than that, its pretty blank atm, dont mind that actually, dont know. and its the hyped-up captainball mini yf tourney this sat! some are pretty engrossed and intensed, others forgot, some indifferent. but its down the wire! GREEN to WIN! :) nothing impossible with chonghanjung (bragger side of me)!


oooh yes, and happy 13th, love ♥

3

now that sem break beckons, and i could do ANYTHING i want, EVERYTHING i longed to do which i never really had time or bothered to.... and then what?

intensive study week hasn't come easy, but im getting more and more concentrated on it. stats, as so far the best in terms of coursework, is one of the toughest to polish up for final, 10 freakin' chapters with endless work and exercises. i better be braced for some real perseverance.

owh, i checked my digital media (comp) coursework, and for some strange reasons i got an A :/ kinda weird really, but i don't mind! (; and it definitely gives me more incentive to work harder.

the amazing episode

this mounts a challenge, yeah. but when this other strikes, you have totally no idea what more you can do. you don't run from it, you don't hide either, neither can you. nothing but inevitable. you feel like a giant attempting to cross an endless borderless minefield, a limbless child trying to outrace the others in a swimming contest, a bird trying to convince humans that you can teach english, whatever. you try to arm yourself with shield, but there is none. ammos, none either. you try to think of the outcome, but it is too bitter to foretell. you try to look for the turning point, but it only points to the dreadful direction.

you look at the tear and wounds, the tears shed, the voices amplified, the energy sapped, the painful heart. you can't do anything about it. sometimes you even feel like cursing, killing. but that is plain foolish and nonsensical. you wish you live another 2 decades, when the flowers might actually bloom once again, and wonder what might happen then, and looking back and seeing, wow, what a difficult story you have seen.

and the special day for the special someone

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GF!

you are forever special in my heart



the rest shall be undisclosed :p

messy massacre

and now you think your stats coursework is brilliant? besides checking out mine, i apathetically browsed through the rest of the scorelist, wondering how the others did. believe the insanity, 49 of 50 for coursework! ): makes me feel insignificant, a minor, mere trifle.

not so much time for sulking though. i'm already amid battlefield, completing this, patching up that, catching up those. everything is coming in bulks and thrown straight at your face: "take it or leave it, bub; owh come to think of it, take it, you have no other choice."

pretty fast huh? final re-emerges yet again, always been a challenge for me, not only to maintain or improve the academical tempo, but attempt to make a breakthrough from my everlasting resistance level, if you perceive my thoughts. Everlasting, because it doesn't ever seem like feasible. But my new-found gusto makes it less invulnerable. Not some kind of false belief, i hope.

wishing...by a...sun.

owh, today is sept 18, tmr is sept 19!
...

multieverything

a like sometimes we think we can't, but when we are actually put into the challenge, we could miraculously achieve it somehow. tad example is how i could still sprint around playing tennis despite the aftermath of the typical ankle sprain. yeah, thats just a minor instance. try it on something with higher stake in your life and youl get me.

tennis, ping pong, volleyball, futsal, handball, badminton, captainball. at yumcha we talked about having too many sports at one go. but honestly, it only adds to the already-passion. owh what more? with a bike and a decent running shoes, i could add two more into the tally. cycling and hiking/marathon! i'll start with october's 10km with gabs, with crossed fingers.

ooh. i also like that my investment exam subjective answers got posted out on the lecturer's door! full marks for subjective is truly not what i ever set my benchmark at. but it only goes to show nothing is impossible. surely, i know i wouldn't have done it without You and you. it's sheer magic. a moment no one could comprehend.

you bring me back to life

i feel so deeply for you. i feel so hurt seeing you like that. i feel i did not do enough. i also feel, i have an important role to play.

be strong now, pick yourself up, confront your challenge with a brave heart, you know you are doing your part, trust me the people see and know it. the rest, you need to trust and let God take control. sometimes, the road seems to lead you to doom. little do you know, its for a better cause eventually.

im around for you. the people are right there for you. He, is always here for you.

the song. the lyrics. is for you.

remember now, to take care. and let time run its course.


love you.
hugshugs

tonic monday

it was just a day or two ago the brilliant reunion plan of the handball team was set up, and it in fact did happen this morning. not that the entire team was here, but its good to see familiar faces once again, and also the other team of our former juniors. more so, the rekindling of the passion for the sport and teamplay, the sport which iv cherished alot of significant memories with. of course though, not leaving with pains on knee, wrists, here there everywhere. we are still by far smooth flowing and brilliant, and what i continuously reckon is the best handball team the school has conceived. bravo

other than that, monday today has been about spending some time, together; having what i believe is a crucial nap in this baked afternoon; more Survivor; and do you believe this, full concentration on assignment till it completes. i have achieved some kinda milestone already today. perhaps it just feels good today.


6 months, a year, 14 months, 25 months, and 50 months. you name it (:
a candy if you could guess right all the counts.

its SUNDAY

(specially dedicated to twin.)

hit song: Rachael Lampa - Always Be My Home.
(btw its the background song for 50th anniversary video!)

Your heart will always be my home,
No matter where I go,
No matter what may come.

You'll be my shelter in the storm,
a harbor safe and sound,
where only true forgiveness can be found.
But still, I wanna run away
And go it all alone.
Will I ever learn from my mistakes?

CHORUS
And I can't live without Your love.
Cause Your eyes have seen beyond,
the things I'm guilty of.
I won't be afraid to turn back down the road.
Cause Your heart will always be my home.

And when, I've cried a thousand tears,
You've always wiped them dry.
And watched me as I spread my wings and fly
to a place, where holiness begins,
and mercy never ends.
And I will find my freedom once again,
But still, I wanna run away
And go it all alone.
Will I ever learn from my mistakes?

CHORUS

Your hands are always open,
to catch me when I fall,
I feel a million miles away,
but that's no distance, at all...

But still, I wanna run away
And go it all alone.
Will I ever learn from my mistakes?

CHORUS

Cause Your heart will always be my home.

the count

just when you think you're darn good. GOD tells you you're not, so walking humbly and continue working hard. A handy reminder for me chong han jung, and maybe YOU too.

i recently have been realizing how forgetful i am, as if i wasn't. perhaps i should start the daily counts for what i forget and capitalise on the statistics and analysis knowledge i have been learning. owh and did i not mention, occasional waking up lates esp on crucial days are identical killers. shouldv been adamant bout taking up psychology previously and psycho myself... yeah it doesn't make sense.. my point is, it does look mild now, but theres somehow a way to overcome these, right? psychos, come calling.


(A+) + (B-) = D
):

why not A+ or A?

Gabrielle | Sunshine

Rekindled love for this song.


Made a wish
I can dream
I can be what I want to be
Not afraid
To live life
And fulfill my fantasies
I learnt a lot of tricks to help me live my life
You helped me find my paradise
When you came you were like

Chorus:
Sunshine through my window
Thats what you are, my shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

Reaching out, for new heights
You inspired me to try
Felt the magic inside
And felt that I could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
Cause when you came you were like

(chorus)

You are the calm, when I am the storm
You are the breeze, that carries me on
When I set adrift, you anchor me
You're there for me

(chorus x5)


(:

turnaround

you bet the night was good, tho.

anyway, this morning was a pleasant one too. investment mid term paper back, and i was probably 3/4 conscious coz i was real tired from lack of sleep, so i just searched my paper and got it and i was like, "owh okay, 78..". lagging a lil, my mind soon came to senses and i was going "wow not too bad..". Plus and additional 7 marks, which makes it 85/100! hoho. yeah, dont mind that 15 marks.

like it always does

if you count unexpected one or two hours of sleep a real sleep, then i did that. the body was battered after i finally completed my assignment (which i dont even remember what time i did...maybe lauren could tell me), it automatically carried me into my room and switched off! yeah, the memory of having an exam in a few hours' time was apparently vanished alongside. when i actually got up, my life was temporarily turned frenzy. it was a literal fracas and havoc all over my skin and for once in some time, i felt heavy carrying my 60kg, and was pretty much anxious about not making it.

somewhat only God can tell. i arrived late enough yet good enough to be allowed in the exam hall. and completed the exam paper as if i was given an extra hour. it was a paper people could finish in 20 mins and without having too much problems answering it.

just got a real power nap, tho i doubt its enough.. it never is. assignments, 3 more. did you even realize most times i post something, assignment dues will always be there? yeah, its that unbelievable over here. and what more, the student loan thingo wont be coming in for another month. now im wondering whether its a good thing or otherwise. good, because inevitably i'd be spending money yet the loan untouched..so i have more money! otherwise, because i'd have to find my way to get that money for one month of survival. starting with tonight, i'd be going out, and with 10 bucks in my wallet. where begging comes in :/

theres nothing good about today really. nasty, in fact.
sigh.

food your stomach

monday's kinda officially my free weekday already. morning class is presentation, as if i'm gonna sacrifice my sleep for amusing skits; afternoon is a crap computer class where our aunty lecturer talks almost her own alien language, probably teaching herself i reckon.

so iv been waiting waiting, for my late waking up, 930 and an 'eventful' half hour in bed (who else would know this?) before getting up. did some onlining and work till afternoon. owh, my brilliant sem continues with 2 mid terms and 1 assignment submission deadline for week10 this week! then my empty house convinced me i should get my butt moving and grab some food. that was me caleb and jon wee. then we were off to mont kiara's haagen dazs + rich ivy jonlee.

owhh having rm40 for mass haagen dazs sounds good, but stuffing 14 scoops of haagen and a kfc snackplate before that upsets no one but your stomach (: rich was the biggest consumer at 22 scoops (yeah right 30). ooh, as if not enough, i was called for yumcha with kelvinhun nimalan chinloong thereafter (all back from some places in the world)..dilemma of course considering the amount of food hanging about in my stomach and lack of sleep has been taking its toll on me (right...more like laziness), but i decided i should just go meet em after some long months. wasn't too bad a decision for once, had some good time talking pure rubbish (and a lil serious ones meh) like how secondary school times always were :p and owh, thursday be my second mid term paper for the week..and they so-called it drink to celebrate. :/ owh yeah, the fun and fun continues...

owh, after haagen it was supposed to be yumcha with the adults, but just coz gabs couldn't make it i decided it be with my secondary school friends eventually. both be good so i dont regret either one. makan makan and talk talk with gabs...cant waittt. we'd start with vball tmr.

i just realized iv been using alot of owhhs :/

owh, todays been a real crazy talkative nonsensical me. a rare sight.
(just take into account the last time i actually posted something long and sensible here)

make me smile (: